It’s been a really tough year. Honestly – it’s been a really tough 2 years. I notice this seems to be how everyone feels. Like this last year had one goal and that goal was to take every single one of us OUT!
But here we are. About to start a whole new year and even though most of us are limping, with limbs missing – we made it!
If you are like me, you don’t set New Year’s resolutions, because you are always growing and evolving. Setting new boundaries, readjusting goals, and moving forward every day of your life – not just when the date changes to a new year.
I really lost myself this year. I worked so hard to keep me – me – but I got buried in the tidal waves that kept hitting. One disappointment after another. The second I began to feel relief and me get back to me just a little bit – something painful, disappointing, and hard would come crashing in just in the moment I felt like I could finally breathe.
But I showed up. I never gave up. I wanted to. I made a lot of really poor choices this year because my emotions have been running on high as I have not really been able to come out of “survival mode”. But I also made some good ones.
I have seen some incredible victories this year and I did my best to remain focused on those. But for me to sit here and say it’s been easy would be a lie. I have cried almost every single day for the last 6 months.
If you are like me and feeing this too, I want you to take a second and be proud of yourself.
You showed up, when everyone else would have given up.
You kept going, when you did not have the energy to go on.
You held onto Hope, when there was nothing left to cling too.
You took on another day even when you felt so discouraged and defeated.
You may have gotten here by barely holding on – but you made it.
One thing is for sure – if you keep putting 1 foot in front of the other. One moment, one day, at a time, I can promise you – it will get better.
How do I know this – because you have made it through 100% of everything else in your life you did not think you would get through. And 5 years from now, these moments will be your strength. And these moments will be your story that others will someday look up too.
So keep on trudging my friends. I will lift every single one of you up in prayers that the madness comes to an end, and that 2023 is your breakthrough year. Send me your prayers and I’ll pray for you.
