Which for you that may just mean it’s Tuesday. For me, it’s my weekly break down day. A day that I have to get all the things done. And be reminded of all the challenges I carry on my shoulders. A day where I cry because I don’t understand what God is doing. Or why my prayers go unanswered. A day where I’m reminded of any mistake I have made these last few years, while also equally being a day where I have to toughen up and get things done because if I don’t, they won’t get done.
It’s a day where I’m reminded how alone I am, and having help would mean the world to me. A day where I’m reminded that it’s just me and God.
After 4 years I thought I would have been used to emptiness, loneliness. I thought I’d have things more peaceful. Maybe my life more figured out. But instead I feel like my whole life has gone backwards. And continues to spiral out of control. While on the flip side – I am so blessed. In so many areas.
Woman get this. We can feel completely overwhelmed and sad but also blessed at the same time. We are complex individuals.
Friends. Can you relate? Do you have this going on? Or maybe you’ve been through something similar and came out on the other side.
For me, I know God has to have something amazing coming. He always does. This is not my traditional blog post full of encouragement to help you overcome.
Instead, today is me being real, raw, honest and open.
These last few years have been some of the hardest I have had to walk through. And one of my deepest desires is to have that amazing best friend who I can count on, rely on, and someone to support me while I support him. Tuesdays are my day every week when I struggle. And I wanted to share this today to show you, you are not alone my friend.
Everywhere I go, everyone I talk to, everyone – everywhere, seems to be battling some really hard stuff lately.
We can look up countless Bible stories and see we are not alone. But today, I come to you real and raw to show you – you are not alone.
Now I gotta get this gym cleaned for the week. But don’t you dare give up friend. It’s hard. We feel like we will never make it through.
But you and I have 1 thing in common. We have made it through 100% of everything we didn’t think we would ever get through. And we look back and see how it all worked out.
So while we both trudge these hard days together. Be reminded of that – 5 years from now, today, those tears – you won’t even remember them. You will remember it being hard. But you will not remember that on December 6th 2022 you cried in your car because you were too emotionally tired and felt completely drained.
I love you friends!
Happy Tuesday.
