For the first time in 6 years, my schedule is slowing down. I have waited a few months to state that.
But even though I’m still productive I am enjoying the blessing of a slowed down schedule.
I wish I would have saved my past calendars, especially from 2014-2017, because looking back to see how far we have come would be cool to see. However, my reality was that I didn’t want anything to keep me in the negative. So I chucked the calendars into the trash at the end of every year with faith that my schedule would get back to normal that next new year.
This is one reason why I still prefer to schedule even coffee dates with friends on the weekdays. Weekends is the one time when we especially dislike having anything going on. We spent so many weekends for years (yes, years) running all over that I just do not like doing that anymore. At some point, we had to say enough.
I will never forget those days when I was in way over my head and there were so many appointments going on that I had a break down in my car while driving because I could not fit 30 minutes more into my day to do additional therapy with the kids. I was on the phone with Rehab Visions and the only time that worked for me was 7:45 am on a Tuesday (or some other day. I do not remember if it was Tuesday or Wednesday). And they didn’t have one opening.
To have a day off back then was 1-2x a year. And even then stuff always came up that wasn’t written down.
Today, I am looking at my calendar as I am writing stuff down and feeling so thankful that, that season is currently slowing down.
Hallelujah
If you are feeling the stress of hectic schedules (I like to refer to the word “busy” as the word “productive” instead because it just sounds more positive) and you are not sure how you will keep on, keeping on. You are not alone. That drowning feeling you are experiencing does pass. If you feel like you are slowly being suffocated, it gets better. If you are feeling like you are way over your head. Keep going.
Take it one day at a time. Heck, take it one minute at a time. Better yet, take it one moment at a time. Your schedule will slow down.
There is nothing wrong with stopping for a second and focusing on only what is in front of you. This is a very beneficial thing to do.
You may be late for therapy, but you are not permanently late for everything. And maybe you are late for everything today, maybe this week. Maybe this whole month.
But that does not mean you are late forever in everything.
Breathe, take one step, take one more. Do only what requires your attention right now. Focus on trying to be what you need to be in that moment, and then move to the next.
And in time, your schedule will start to slow down. Those days will come. That blessing will come.
You got this! Keep going.
Don’t give up.
And Remain Steadfast.